my life my shit

i need to whine.

i have to whine.

and maybe go arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr and arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr and arrrrrrrrrrr....

my mind is in a cluster, i feel flustered all the time. i dont know what to do and i dont know what i want to do. and it applies to everything. and i mean every single thing.

School sucks,

wth is wrong??? i play hide and seek everyday.. and i must say i'm good at it. i've lost all the excitement and all those sarcasm isnt helping at all. it's not that i dont want but i just cant. i just dont see the point in it, and i know for sure i'm not going to make design my career. i'm just not up to it. but if i never try i never know, so nope i did not regret taking design. frankly speaking, because of design i learnt one of the most important lessons : which is how disgusting human can be and it assures me even more then i can jolly well live life on my own. another 7 more weeks... it will be over soon. 3 months of hell and i overcame it, what is this 7 weeks? till then, i shall use more effort to breathe so as to stay alive.

I'm so so so speechless. I get to know a fact that i didnt expect it to happen. how can something like that happen... and i'm not in a position to comment. but how am i suppose to react? how am i suppose to look at you? how am i suppose to pretend that i dont know?

i've begin to wonder, if it is that precious? or maybe it's nothing. or maybe i'm too conservative. maybe...

it is very bothering, very very bothering.

oh wells... back to reality, i've to start cracking and get some work done tonight.

and continue with my arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....................................