Tuesday, June 28, 2011

It is an act of faith to tend a flower. The rewards are not immediate. We have to persevere and be patient. We have to continue to spend time on doing something that isn't immediately rewarding.

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Monday, June 6, 2011

people should know where they stand, and not ask and hope for things that are way beyond means. especially when it affects those around. this is call 自不量力.
oh, and you.. all these times doesn't mean that when i don't say, i really don't know. i just pretend not to know, cos' your life is screwed up by yourself. i can't be bothered with you. what's up with those lies?

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Wednesday, May 25, 2011

I will break this chain that binds me~
happiness will find me~
Leave the past behind me~
today my life begins~

A whole new world is waiting~
it's mine for taking~
I know I can make it~
today my life begins~

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Monday, March 28, 2011

whenever i miss you, i just play tetris. but i know i'm always going to have that one missing piece.

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Tuesday, March 8, 2011

everyone has their way with coping this life. i don't like march, please go away soon.

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Tuesday, March 1, 2011

there can be miracles, when you believe.

“These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

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Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Free and flying like a bird.

I'm so pleased right now. nice song playing through with my room that is ever so dim. and a drawing that beautifies my world. Great~ Hell lots of things are over and I managed to go through each of them. happy or not, it's gone! I'll take things as they come now, if i'm given a chance to study i'll take it. If i'm given a chance to work in that co. or the other co. , i'll take it too. Everything that is coming at me are well, things that i wanna do. Peace at last. Happy and smiling at last. Freedom at last. Honestly, I'm happy with life. either this or that, i'll receive them with contentment. nobody is going to pull me back, i'm just going to do what i want. eat,sleep,draw,shit,play and the list goes on ...

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Thursday, February 17, 2011

"Sometimes the thing that ruins my day the most is having something funny happen to me and finding that the only person I want to tell about it is the person whom I’m slowly trying to burn bridges with because no one else would understand.

It’s almost like finding leftover secrets in your pocket that you forgot to tell the one person you trusted the most, or memories you suddenly remembered that relate to something that person once told you that now you wish you could share, or stepping into a place only to realize the last time you were there was with that person and it was a moment you’d want both of you to relive together, or it’s like finding something you saved for that person to have the next time you planned on seeing them.. except you never saw them again.

And my biggest fear is exactly that — never having that person again."

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Saturday, February 12, 2011

fake a smile, force a laughter. life is enchanting enough.

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Sunday, January 30, 2011

the worst nightmare is over, and you were here holding my hands.

I need to have a Thank You speech like a really long one. but no i'm not so touchy and feely and mushy. right but still friends who have been there i know who you are and Thank You so much. seriously, only i get how it felt. and pretty soon i'll be at a junction of choices yet again. tough one this time who knows what it dictates in each turn. not much anticipation and not much unwillingness. perhaps a little more dose of happiness. well, i'm very sure i gonna make a lot more mistakes, stumble and fall like a bee, but then most of the times the greatest rewards comes from doing things that scare you the most, maybe just this once i might just get everything that i have wished for, or maybe i'll get more then i've ever imagined. who knows where life takes you. The road is long, but life always have a way in working out. for now, let's just keep moving forward and not give a crap what anybody thinks.

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Sunday, January 23, 2011

I don’t want to battle from beginning to end
I don’t want a cycle of recycled revenge
I don’t want to follow Death and all of his friends

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Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Life is too short, and all one could ever want is to be happy. Time to know that every minute is ticking and ticking and hardly would you get the chance to have things back again and again. We, or rather me, should wake up and seriously know that life is too short to be unhappy we just have to take the good with the bad. Life still goes on and on. It's f***ed up, yes i know but what else can we do? i'm only human after all, i have my emotions, i have my feelings. The reason why i've kept quiet all the F***ing time is because i just can't be bothered to talk to you, you whom i know is just another stubborn retard who can't seem to have listening ears. enough is enough. as per usual, i'm just gonna swallow all the shit you give but to the day i explode, please count your blessings.

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Monday, January 17, 2011

give me a break.
i want to be free.

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Sunday, January 9, 2011

it's just so frustrating to be doing things that is so upsetting. Can't wait for time to fly by. I want to do things that i want. I want my freedom. Crap Crap Crap.
SIGH~

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Thursday, January 6, 2011

things will get better. i'm sure. it will all turn out fine.
oh yes, it will.

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Sunday, January 2, 2011

awwwww~ having your company is just like having a cup of hot chocolate on a rainy night.
thanks! :)

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Wednesday, December 29, 2010

In all aspects of the mind, it still lingers and creeps about. I have to keep reminding myself constantly what my Heavenly Father says. And I have to repeating and reading the lines to make sure it doesn't slipped off my mind. I have to embrace my enemies and love them and even pray for them. Well, I'll follow and abide in it but those people... it's not that I hate them it's just that I feel better when they are not around.
Changes are so hard especially when you have to run up and catch the tails, most of the times I barely lay my fingers on it. There are a lot of unexplainable things in life and again the same old reply would be: there's nothing to be done. And many things are just not meant to be and perhaps the hardest thing is to say goodbye. But in my case, saying hello again is what brings you down. It seems so impossible to bear in the arms of the tired and weary. But then again, of all times it is because of change that life is going on, and that we are all surviving.
I cannot even handle myself, what am I to think further?

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Monday, December 27, 2010

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of it's own.
-Matthew 6:34


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Sunday, December 26, 2010

Thank you for my being friend but i dont deserve it.

snap* and it breaks. reckon it's too late. you are tired, so am i. I am just dumb + dense + clueless which is why it makes me so hard to understand your every sentence. I am very selfish, yes i admit. I need, want, and can only handle a friend who would be as dense as my level. In my personal context, friends just don't have to turn about and have other messages and meaning buried one after another. It just doesn't make any sense. best friend forever, and i mean forever. you know every well that it wasn't easy to let you in. and because you broke that wall, you are never just a normal person in my life. especially after the harsh truth i've faced. you always have your proud know-it-all self, that ego which is way higher then the moon up there and that is something i thought was rather impressive. something i'm so happy that you have it in you. other people might not appreciate it, other people may put it down, but who cares? you are you. i never knew it was so tiring for you to be my friend. i didn't know that it would upset you.
maybe i don't deserve a friend like you.
maybe right from the start you shouldn't have spent your efforts on me.
maybe it's better if we stop everything.
"it is possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief lessens. It may not go away completely, but after a while it's not so overwhelming."

i should have known for the better that someone like me should be left alone.
please locked me up in a box and never let me out.

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Wednesday, December 22, 2010

My fault for assuming.
for the thought that as a friend for so many years, could understand and know what I actually meant.
My fault for assuming.
that it doesn't really matter on the how, when, where, what and whys.
My fault for assuming.
that all upsetting emotions would be laid on the table just me and you.
but no, you had to go and tell another.

well.
lesson learnt, no matter how long, no matter how much. there is no such thing as forever. and NEVER EVER EVER ASSUME. no diff man, no diff.

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